Wow, not sure what’s influenced my brain behaviour but the last few days have and are definitely showing the cracks. I just sat down decided to try to write because nothing else I’m trying to do cognitively is happening. Ok I’m back, side tracked again, something popped into my head so decided to go check the mail. This is how the last few days have been, it’s like a Ferris wheel going round and round and no one stopping it for anyone to get off. I know I do have days where it’s worse than others but the last few have been extremely bad, so bad that yesterday I finally just decided it best just to sit on the couch and not attempt anything else.
A million steps taken to go do something or start something, forgotten before I actually accomplished it, something else grabs my attention mid stream then off like a squirrel I go. The never ending treasure hunts I’m on these days that have, until know been confined to the space of my home has now spilled out to everywhere, or anywhere I might go or be. It’s not a wonder why by 6 pm I’m heading for bed navigating all these things is so exhausting. No time to be bored, living inside this body and mind. It’s like running a marathon with no finish line. I laugh about it a lot, but it is and can be so frustrating, and disheartening, it’s life with dementia.
So mostly on these types of days I just decide to try to have fun, do things that make me laugh, be patient or try to be until my brain decides to switch it up again when I will accomplish much, like nothings wrong, it’s like having your own game of brain teasers going on except it’s not a game, it’s real life and it’s your life.
I sometimes think that the weather impacts my dementia a lot. Not sure how many people pay attention to that, but I was wondering if this swirling fast changes weather and barometric changes are impacting things for me. Just like the changing of the moon and the tides can impact I am convinced the weather systems do as well. If I had the ability to remember to track it and write it down the corresponding bad brain days ( or at the very least worsening)with weather patterns I would perform my own little study, unfortunately because those functions are no longer reliable for me and I live alone it’s not possible. But it is good for thought.
Hope you’re all having fun, or at least trying to laugh at yourself rather than cry.